In my free time I knit sweaters, and by knit I mean kick, and by sweaters I mean babies.

Today is my Mercedes' birthday, and she also starts work today, and the 28^th is our 5^th month aniversary.
AND I'M NOT FUCKING WITH HER TO TELL HER HAPPY EFFN' BIRTHDAY!!!
yeah my life sucks bawls!
I really effn' hate this so much, I'm not with the one whom I love.
No matter how hard it seems to stay with her, It really is, because she does things that I don't really like, such as smoke(from what she said she quit), Drink(we have already had some problems with her), and some of the people that she hangs around(I think that some of them are good, but there is this one that bugs me). There are reasons as to why I would like for her to stop drinking, it slows down the tought prosses of the mind, also instead of it going from A to B it goes from A to W to G to D to T to B, it lengthens the synapses of the brian so it takes it a lot longer to get to one point to another, that usualy happens when you drink before the age of 21 thats why the legal age to drink or purchase alcohol is at that age. It also turns people, well, stupid. They make horrible decisions, like sleeping with the wrong person, or doing jackass type shit. Now I'm not agianst doing stupid shit, hell I do my fair share of it, but it's just the kind that you sleep with your best friend and then two days later something sparks it and you remember it, in which you shouldn't have done it because you are with someone else. I trust her but I don't trust the people who she hangs around. I am also jelouse, what nick jelouse when did this happen, Well I'm really only jelous of the people who she is around, I'm jelous that they get to be with her and I don't.
But really no matter how much it seems like we shouldn't be together, I will always love her.

*nick*